When Things Go Quiet!!!!

Have you ever sat there and wondered why things go quiet? Well I have, now i'm not sure if its because I have four children or not, but noise seems to be all around you whatever way you look at it. Whether its the birds outside your window, or the cars driving down the street, there just seems to be noise everywhere you go, so what if everything was to go quiet. I mean really quiet, so quiet that you could'nt hear the birds, the cars, the people talking, nothing, absolute silence. What would you really think, or more to the point, how would you be feeling?

So how would I react? Fear definately, I hear so much going on around me through the day that I would start to notice the fact that I could'nt hear anything at all. And also I suppose at first there would be confusion, that would hit me hard, the fact that I cant hear any of the things that I would normally hear. You see a car drive past, and still you hear nothing, so you speak, and you don't hear the echo of your voice that you once heard so often, I would definately freak out. I think to have something for so long, then all of a sudden you lose it, you would be extremely confused, simple little things that you remember so much when you see them would be forever silent.

I suppose my first fear would be the fact that I couldn't hear my own voice, now I know I don't like my voice very much, but I would really miss hearing it, and I guess all I would want to do at first is shout. I would shout and scream as loud as I posibly could in hope that I might just hear something, anything. I think after shouting and screaming endlessly for 20 minutes or so, the penny would finally drop that I was deaf, and that I will never hear anything ever again in my entire life.

So how would you deal with something as harsh as that, I suppose you could go for endless treatments and hospital appointments, in hope and in desperation, that one day somebody may actual help you hear all of those things that you miss so dearly, or do you just get on with things as normal, and try and hope that you will succumb the fear and the anxiety that this new found deafness has brought upon you. I think that once something like this darkens your life, there is not that much you can do about it, and once that fact has been realized, you get to move on. But how long does this take I'm wondering, how many painstaking weeks would you have to endure the hurt or the anger, I guess this I will never know.

I see more and more deaf people as I pass through the streets of my city, and they all look so happy, and yes this does confuse me, I often think why are they are so happy, they can't hear anything. But then I look at the bigger picture, especially if they remember what they used to hear so often, they see the things, but just don't hear them, like the voices of other people, and the sounds of children playing. But because they can remember and relate to them sounds, it must make it slighty easier, or are they just simply putting up a brave face, I guess the only people that know the answers, the real answers, are the deaf people themselves.

I could'nt imagine losing my hearing, in fact after thinking long and hard about it, it would completely destroy my life, I do so many things in my life that evolve around hearing, and to have something then lose it suddenly, it would turn my life completely up side down. But I'd have to deal with it would'nt I, just like all those smiling people that I see daily.